Friday, February 12, 2016

So...

If you are friends with me on Facebook, you may have seen this post that I made back in January.



A couple of weeks ago, I was reading She Reads Truth (if you don't know what that is you should look it up...guys, there is one for you too) and something about the devotional really grabbed my attention. Debbie Eaton said, "Leaving what is known for the unknown of new beginnings takes enormous inner strength and courage."
Hmmmm... She continued by saying, "What I’ve learned over the years is that God rarely calls us to comfort and convenience but instead to a life of faith and trust." Today is my last day at the bank, a place that I have spent majority of my time for the last 3 years, a place where I have made friends, developed knew skills, and learned a lot about myself and my abilities. Leaving has been a scary decision, but the opportunity and possibility that comes with this change is incredible. Getting to spend more time with my son is something that I have dreamed of! It seems silly, why am I so anxious? Well, the bank is safe and I know what to expect. This new job feels like a risk, but I am willing to follow Jesus where ever he may lead me. Today is going to be a day of tears and hugs, and the next several weeks...months even, is just going to be filled with prayer, and faith. I am excited to see what the Lord has in store, and what he is going to do with this new opportunity.


Taking a leap of faith, and doing what you think the Lord is calling you to do is not always easy. I wish that I could say with absolute certainty that I know when I am following His direction, but I question myself often. I have made bad decisions before, (Or at least I thought they were bad decisions at the time.) I have acted out quickly and followed my heart only to be hurt. Honestly, the decision to change careers was one of the hardest decisions I have made in a long time. I loved my friends at the bank and I enjoyed my job, but the opportunity that presented itself was something that seemed perfect. I wanted so badly to spend more time at home with Rowan, and this change was going to give me the opportunity to do just that. However, there were a lot of things I was uncertain about. Would I be able to do well at this job? Would the job have the security that I needed? They were questions that were constantly on my mind, but in the end I was sure that is where God was calling me to go.

Fast forward 36 hours…



wow...this has been quite a day. i have never pretended to know the plan the Lord has for my life, that would be way too easy. i am more certain than ever that His plan must be crazy and awesome, because everything I thought I knew is out the window...and I am left with friends, family, and faith that it is all going to work out. #bringonHisplan #takemedeeper #vrsly #madewithvrsly @vrsly

The job that I thought was the perfect, dream job was no more. The job that I was sure the Lord was leading me to…gone. When something like that happens, you really question your judgment. I told myself that it was going to be difficult to follow my heart again. I told myself that I was a terrible judge of character, and that I had no idea how to listen to what God was telling me. I had made what I thought was the biggest mistake, and now the only thing there was to do was to ask for my old job back. I questioned my decisions for days, and I cried for days.

I was crushed, I was embarrassed, I was angry, but most of all I was humbled. I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I knew exactly what I was supposed to happen. I imagined myself in that position, I imagined myself spending that extra time with Rowan, and then everything that I had imagined just vanished. I was lucky enough to be welcomed back to work with open arms, (My bosses and coworkers are awesome!) but coming back to work was not very easy. I had to explain why my plans had failed, and why I was no longer leaving.

Anyway, this post is getting rambley in a hurry. It is hard for me to sit here and tell you all about this situation, because there are still days that I break down thinking about all of the “what ifs.” However, I have learned something very valuable from the experience. I know that God was part of that every step of the way. I had prayed endlessly about it, and I am sure that I was following His direction. Yes, at first I felt ashamed, like I had misread everything and at the last minute God swooped in and said “Whoa, this is not what I wanted you to do!” Sometimes, God leads you to a place, not because it is the place for you, but because he wants to see if you will follow him. I wavered on my decision constantly. I didn’t know what I wanted to do, but in the end I did what I thought the Lord wanted me to do. That decision gave me confidence, strengthened relationships, and I am sure prepared me for something bigger. I don’t have a clue what God is going to call me to do next, but I know that I am ready to follow Him where ever He will lead me.

Don’t be afraid to follow your heart, and don’t be afraid to take a leap of faith every once in a while. It will always be scary…and even when you fall, there is something to gain.

Wednesday, January 20, 2016

Confessions

Sometimes I get sucked into the beautiful profiles of Instagram. Do you know what I am talking about? The one's where the mother seems to have it all together, and nothing ever goes wrong. Where there is no hint of mess or disorder. It can get you down when you are facing 4 loads of laundry and a baby with cottage cheese in his hair. Just in case you thought my life was not a total mess (which I am pretty sure I have never hid from you) I thought I would share some little confessions.



1. Unless you give me a 20 minute warning that you are coming over, you are going to have to walk through the cheerio minefield in my living room. (If you do give me a heads up, I still can't make any promises.) I vacuum up the cheerios every single day, but it never fails that they end up all over.

2. For every sweet #rowanweekbyweek picture that I posted, there are 20 more on my phone that include tears, poop, or squirming...or all three.

3. For 8 solid months I put Rowan in his crib with absolute certainty that he was going to sleep all night! SPOILER ALERT...I was never right!

4. When I was little, my aunt snapped my leg in a onesie, but I don't think I can give her a hard time anymore...if I was half as squirmy as my son, I totally see how it happened.

5. The other day I went to change Rowan's diaper and there were none in the diaper bag. I guess it is okay, you learn from your mistakes, right? Wrong, it has happened again since then! Other things that have been missing from the diaper bag when I really need them? Wipes. Pacifier. Probably any other diaper bag essential. Things that you will more than likely ALWAYS find in the diaper bag. Random receipts. A pair of sunglasses. Used Kleenex (used by Rowan). For those of you who tell me I am so organized...HA!

6. There have been days lately that I have consumed more coffee than food.

7. Even though I picked out some really cute bath toys for the little man, he would much rather fight me for a washcloth...so now we just use two per bath time. I mean, who ever minded a little extra laundry.

I hope you enjoyed these!

Saturday, January 9, 2016

Rowan's Lumberjack Bash

Have I told you that our baby turned one?! Where did time go?


We celebrated his birthday with a lumberjack bash...complete with a flapjack bar. Since Dane and I have been married, we have always had pancakes on our birthday. So, we thought it would be fun to do pancakes instead of traditional birthday cake. We had a variety of fruit and other pancake toppings for guests, and Rowan had his very own "lumberjack stack" to dig into. 



We decorated the party with these cute lumberjack prints that I found on Etsy, evergreen accents, and lots of buffalo plaid. We even diffused Northern Lights Black Spruce and Pine, so it would smell like a lumberjack forest. Okay, I don't know if that is really a thing, but it smelled really good.



Rowan was showered in love and attention, that is for sure. He had a blast chasing his friends around, and we enjoyed visiting with everyone who came out to help us celebrate. 

Thank you all for a year of advice and encouragement! We love you! 



Tuesday, January 5, 2016

Happy 2016

I hope you all had a happy and safe new year, and a productive #firstmonday. I rang in the new year with a few friends, a necessary nap at 10:00 PM, and kisses from my two favorite fellas (yes, the littlest one was still awake!)



2015 was the best year yet! We spent most of the year navigating the waters of parenting and changing stinky diapers. However, we also made new friends and had some new adventures...as if parenting weren't an adventure...HA!

I am so excited to see what 2016 has in store. This is going to be a year like no other, and the first (and seemingly biggest) change of the new year is just days away. It is going to be a year of adventure and possibilities, of taking chances and following my heart! I can't say how the year is going to end, but I am sure that it is going to be great! For now, I am just going to put my trust in the Lord and enjoy this crazy ride we get to call life! 

Friday, December 18, 2015

Merry CHRISTmas

Christmas is quickly approaching, and my list of things to do doesn’t come close to fitting on the calendar! This time last year I was done shopping, done wrapping, and done decorating (if you think that means that never finished decorating, you would be correct.) I was all set to go for the holidays weeks early…you know, just in case a certain little fella decided to make his appearance. Well, that same fella is all sorts of “I want to help” without any kind of wrapping skills.



We are keeping it pretty simple this year. I did manage to mail out some Christmas cards (only because it is one of my favorite traditions), we put up a few Christmas decorations, and filled Rowan’s bookshelf with all of his Christmas-y books. However, we haven’t made festive popcorn, sipped hot chocolate, or sat through a Christmas movie marathon! I may just have to continue to celebrate the holiday well into February!

Now, I am going to go try to wrap some gifts while listening to Christmas music and diffusing Christmas Spirit…and stuff as much holiday cheer into the next week as humanly possible! Tis the season!

I hope that you all have a merry Christmas, and remember...

"The best of all gifts around any Christmas tree, the presence of a happy family all wrapped up in each other." -Burton Hillis

Monday, December 14, 2015

Baby's First Christmas Gift Guide


I cannot believe that we are getting ready to celebrate our last "first" holiday with Rowan. Christmas came way too quickly this year, and let's not even talk about what is 2 days later. (sniff, sniff) I was certain that we would be celebrating baby's first Christmas last year, so this isn't the first year that I have had presents for under the tree. Last year was easy, a couple of outfits all wrapped up to get his picture taken next to...you know, so he didn't look back on pictures and think that we didn't get him anything for his first holiday! This year, I really wanted to keep it simple. I picked out a couple of things that he can play with, a couple of books, and an outfit or two...oh, and PJs of course! I put together a little gift guide that includes some goodies that any kiddo would probably love & a couple that Row will be finding under the tree this year.


Oldnavy has some of the cutest pajamas for children. I love this moon set for little boys, but there are way too many for me to pick a favorite. 

Rowan loves bath time (aka: splash, splash), but we don't have a lot of bath toys. He usually prefers to play with an extra washcloth, but I think that these colorful bath appliques will draw his attention. Boon actually has a bunch of really cool bath toys! 

I tried to find things that Rowan would enjoy playing with for years to come. This campfire set from Land of Nod is perfect for littles, but I think that bigger kids would love it too! I mean, who wouldn't want to have a camp out in the middle of the living room!? 

Cold weather gear is an easy stocking stuffer. I am sure that mittens will come off as easy as hats, sunglasses, and socks for my little rascal, but they are a winter necessity. Aren't these Charlie Brown mittens cute!?

Books always make the list for everyone in my family! Rowan is a little bookworm, and we love adding to his collection of storybooks. Olive the Other Reindeer and Bear Stays Up for Christmas look so cute, and would make adorable Christmas gifts! 

I tried to stick to the something you want, some thing you need, something to wear, and something to read rule, when it came to buying gifts. However, I truly believe that the best present is presence! As long as we are together as a family, it is going to be a wonderful holiday! Hope you found this little guide helpful! 

Saturday, November 28, 2015

Thanksgiving

I hope that all of you had a wonderful Thanksgiving week. We spent a lot of time with family, ate way too much turkey dessert, and enjoyed all that we have to be thankful for. Thanksgiving is one of our busiest holidays. Four celebrations in one day is pretty exhausting, but I wouldn't have it any other way!

The turkey and traveling hit some people a little harder than others! Rowan wasn't feeling his best, but he still managed to scarf down some sweet potatoes and flash some smiles before crashing at stop number 3. Easton was extra exhausted, because he was celebrating Thanksgiving AND turning 2 at the same time! Talk about multitasking...no wonder he was tired!


Overall, we had a wonderful holiday. We have so much to be thankful for, especially our amazing family.
 
Now, it is time to finish decorating for Christmas! Tis the season!